Day 31: Post a picture of yourself and tell us your story.

31 Days of BPD

Here we are – the end. (It only took 5 months, I apologise!)

meeeeSo here I am. I’m Lauren Hayley Sowts and I’m 23 years old. I have the most incredible mum, boyfriend Nathan, and friends.

It’s hard to know what to write when you’re faced with ‘tell us your story’, so I’m going to give you a quick timeline and bulletpoint it for you all to see:

  • Aged 11 – Abuse from an uncle
  • Aged 12 – First (and only) time to properly self harm
  • Aged 13 – Sexual abuse, from another uncle
  • Aged 14 – Anxiety attacks begin
  • Aged 15 – Anxiety attacks 2 or 3 times a day and hello depression
  • Aged 16 – The deepest and most consistant depression I’ve ever faced
  • Aged 17 – Anxiety prevents me from eating – drop 2 st
  • Aged 18 – Come into recovery from the eating disorder caused by anxiety
  • Aged 19/20/21 – Consistantly up and down
  • Aged 22 – Diagnosed with BPD and Cyclothymia
  • Aged 23 – Anxiety at an all time low and taking its form in Agoraphobia

I think it’s safe to say I’d like just one normal year. My life is one thing after another all the time. It’s so draining.

But luckily for me, I have a creative streak and this is the only thing that can take my mind off all the rubbish. I write (obviously), I paint, I draw (not very well), I upcycle, I design – I do everything and anything that uses that fun part of my brain.

So that’s basically me. In a nutshell. Or the weird parts at least. You can find the more random parts here.

And now, because I’m crazy and haven’t got enough to do, I’m planning The Mental Health Art Auction in August. It uses my skills for a good cause and I need as many of you as possible to get on board and join the fight with me. If you are interested, please let me know so that we can make a real difference.

mental health art auction


30 thoughts on “Day 31: Post a picture of yourself and tell us your story.

  1. Joy says:

    Being honest with yourself is sometimes the hardest thing to do. I hope 2015 is a year you can skip on the time line in the future. Blessings! Thanks for sharing.


  2. throughthetunnel42 says:

    A very interesting timeline of what you went through and it takes a lot of courage to bring things into the open. Nice to see another current sufferer working hard to make their life better and to campaign for better awareness of mental health. Good luck

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  3. josephhj says:

    Hi Lauren, can I first say thank you for sharing and second what a great idea to do an art auction to raise funds for such a great cause!

    Like Confessions of a Nail Tech, sorry don’t know your name, may I poach the 31 days challenge also, please? Although I do not suffer with BPD I do fight depression on and off and the exercise will do me good I can see.

    Once again thank you for sharing. You are an inspiration for other young people facing the challenges of mental health issues that can all too often clip the wings of their potential.



    • bylaurenhayley says:

      Hi Jack – Thank you, of course you use it! Hope you enjoy doing the challenge. If you’d like to become involved in the auction, just let me know 🙂 We need people like you to spread the awareness


      • josephhj says:

        Hi Lauren, thanks for the approval .. Will be making a start on the 31 challenges shortly!

        How can I be of help with your auction? I will have a read about it and see what I can come up with.

        Good luck with it regardless and keep up the great work here. You are an inspiring young lady.


  4. darshith0000 says:

    Good luck Lauren for a better life and you’re perfect and beautiful the way you are. The days to be forgotten are gone and the days to be cherished forever are ahead 🙂 Keep collecting good happy memories !! Lots of strength and wishes 🙂


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