Now anyone that really knows me will know that all my tattoos are a daily reminder for me to keep pushing. I don’t really have any random non-meaningful ones, although some of them were definitely on the spur of the moment impulsive decisions.
But that’s OK with me, I still love them all because each of them inspire me to do better, and be better. They’re like little reminders and glimmers of hope that I have the power to make a change in my life and I wouldn’t take a single one of them back.
My first one was inevitably when I turned 18. Actually two days after I turned 18. This is after the depression had started and I wasn’t eating at this point due to my anxiety. The tattoo I decided to get was a fairly abstract lotus flower, but making sure the image featured the stem. It’s unusual for lotus tattoos to show the stem, but for me, the stem is the most important part. The lotus starts off in this dirty water but the stem grows until it reaches past all of that and turns into a beautiful flower. And that’s what it represents to me – Eventually, I will grow past all of this and have a beautiful life.
A few months later, whilst suffering really badly with the anxiety, I moved to Canada. I have family out there. I’d never met them at the time but I decided to take the leap and try a new place and new people. Canada quite literally (as cheesy at it sounds) changed my life. The people changed my life, the place changed my life – it was the best thing I’ve ever done. I gained over 2 stone during this time and my anxiety surrounding my eating habits hard virtually disappeared by the time I returned home six months later. This is the reason for my second (and favourite) tattoo:
My third was the first impulsive tattoo I got. A group of friends and I all decided to get small love hearts behind our ears. It’s so tiny and it’s not nearly as bright as when I first got it done in this picture; it’s barely noticeable. But it makes me think of my friends (not just the ones from that experience, but all my friends) and it makes me think of my family and everyone else I love – which makes me in turn love the tattoo.
Number four: My Shakespeare quote. I wrote a post just the other day about how I don’t believe in fate and mentioned this tattoo then. It goes down the side of my ribs on my left size (oh it looks so sore in this picture – it was just after I’d had it done!)
It reminds me to make my own life and not blame these disorders for everything that’s going wrong. Yes, I have a few mental health issues and sometimes life is beyond difficult, but it’s also what you make it. Our lives aren’t already laid out for us, if you want something to happen, make it happen.
And FINALLY, the 2013/14 craze that is…
Yep. The infinity symbol. My other impulsive tattoo. And yes, whilst it’s a craze and something that’s been done a million times, I actually really like it. It links to my previous tattoo in that life is what you make it, it’s limitless. And that’s what I think of every time I look down at my finger.
Let me know if any of you have any inspirational tattoos!