Agoraphobia is undoubtedly one of the most misunderstood anxiety disorders; with many people assuming it simply means ‘being afraid to leave the house’. However, agoraphobia can be better defined as an intense fear of being in a situation where an escape is not easy. For me, this has included using cash machines because of the length of time you’re stuck waiting for your money and can’t leave; it has included being in elevators, cars, trains, cinemas, using pedestrian crossings; not being able to stand still because of the need to keep running; being unable to cross the road because there’s too much traffic, and a million other small and complex things that would take me way too long to list; but equally impacted my life beyond belief. The result of all of these things was what left me housebound. It wasn’t that the outside world was a scary place to me, it was that my disorder had gradually dictated all the things that I couldn’t escape from and the only option I had left was to remain inside. Leaving the house for the first time isn’t the end of agoraphobia, it’s merely the start, the first step; because agoraphobia is all of those things. Agoraphobia is being too scared to cross a bridge and it’s feeling like you’re going to faint when you’re waiting in a queue. Agoraphobia is being feeling suffocated when crammed in a small room and feeling lost and vulnerable in an open space. Agoraphobia is most definitely not simply ‘being afraid to leave the house’. But by adding together each small step, things can and do get better. Because small steps are massive.



  1. Leslie says:

    What a beautiful post and film Lauren. I remember reading your blog when so much of this was going on and I’m so glad that you have come so far. Never stop trying!


  2. jennymarie4 says:

    Hi Lauren! Your video is wonderful, great job! I remember those videos from last year when you were struggling. It’s great to see how far you’ve come. You look so happy! I know anxiety is never completely cured, but you’re a testament to the fact that it can be treated. Every single small step is huge! Take care, Jenny


  3. jennymarie4 says:

    Reblogged this on Peace from Panic and commented:
    Please take a few minutes to watch this fabulous video from Lauren Hayley. She was one of the first bloggers I met here on WP. I immediately connected with her, as we both have struggled with anxiety, panic attacks, and agoraphobia. She’s taken time off blogging, but recently posted this inspiring video. She’s proof that small steps do matter!


  4. azileea says:

    Even though I’m subscribed to your channel and watch your videos, it’s great to see you here, Lauren!
    Beautifully made and powerful video. It really hit home for me. β™₯
    Now excuse me as I go and share the heck out of it on twitter and facebook. πŸ˜›


  5. watchingthedaisies says:

    Congratulations Lauren on a truly inspiring video. I wonder if you would mind if I mentioned it on my post on Tuesday “Small Steps Up Mountains”? It epitomises the value of taking it slowly and gently. Best wishes.


  6. Li says:

    Wow! Just found this via another blogger I’ve just started following and seriously touched! I have experienced varying degrees of instability with my mental health personally, including debilitating anxiety where at times I’ve not been able to leave the house. I’m glad I’ve found your blog, I’d like to connect with similar, like minded individuals in the blogging world so now following you. It’d be much appreciated if you’d check out mine and like/follow.. p.s. massive well done to you for overcoming so much and making this short film, I’m sure it’ll touch many people as it did me so Thank you x


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s