All About Me

You can find info about my mental health history here. 

1. I study Events Management at Leeds Beckett University – and no, that doesn’t mean I just plan parties for my degree. Click here to see why!
2. My mum is the most important person in the world.
3. If you’d have asked me a few months ago, I’d have said Coke and Tea were my weaknesses. But I’m three months caffeine free – so it’s now decaf tea and a switch to Sprite… I’m getting used to it!
4. Painting and writing clears my head like nothing else can.
5. Balloons freak me out and I can’t eat anywhere near them or touch them.
6. I can count my best friends on one hand. There are very few people I trust with anything and know they’ll be there no matter what.
7. I have a boyfriend, Nathan that means the absolute world to me.
8. I have Borderline Personality Disorder, Cyclothymia and Agoraphobia.
9. It took me eight years to get a diagnosis of my BPD and Cyclothymia; I was very close to giving up on ever finding out what was going on inside my head, but I finally paid for a private assessment when I waited in the middle of a dual carriage way one night waiting for a car to wipe me out.
10. My dream growing up was to be an interior designer on the TV programme, Changing Rooms. Because I liked decorating and I liked TV – perfect!
11. I don’t have a favourite colour. I like dark wintery colours like navy, burgundy and dark greens.
12. The only music genres I don’t really listen to are heavy metal and drum and bass. My playlist on my laptop consists mainly of cheesy pop, rock, indie, hip hop, country and Beethoven’s my guy when I’m doing work.
13. I’m a complete nightmare at watching any kind of scary film/gore. If anybody’s getting stabbed, I aint watching it. It gives me anxiety attacks.
14. My worst fears are not being able to breathe or being out of control, and they’ve been the route of my eating disorder in the past and also the reason I suffer with Agoraphobia.
15. I carry a bottle of water with me everywhere as it calms me down if I begin to panic.
16. I watched nine Grey’s Anatomy series in 3 months. I’m completely and utterly addicted.
17. When I’m manic, the first thing I do is write business plans. I write about ten a year.
18. I’m incredibly organised. There’s nothing like the feeling of crossing something off a list – sad I know!
19. I can’t draw anywhere near as well as I can paint.
20. Leeds is my home now. I smile every time I go past those two awful apartment blocks and I know I’m home.
21. The only time I enjoy snow is if I’m sat in a pub with a glass of red wine and a log fire.
22. I went to Canada for six months when I was eighteen to live with family I didn’t know.
23. I’m incredibly sarcastic. Most people will tell you that if I insult you, I probably like you. Don’t be insulted please, it’s an incredibly British sense of humour.
24. I spend what ever money I have. It’s a problem.
25. I love my friends more than anything but I’m not always a good friend back. When I’m having a bad couple of weeks the first thing I do is shut them out and stop answering their calls/texts.
26. All my dreams in life focus around creativity – design, art, writing.
27. When I went to Canada I was in the middle of an eating disorder. When I left England I weighed 7 stone. When I returned six months later I was 9 stone.
28. Many members of my family were either adopted or fostered, including my mum. Blood doesn’t determine who your family is.
29. I’m studying for a diploma in Mindfulness alongside my degree. Mindfulness is one of the main components of DBT which is commonly used to treat Borderline Personality Disorder.
30. Maths is my biggest weakness. I use my calculator for the simplest equations. I just can’t get better no matter how hard I try.
31. I was a cheerleader for a year which I loved, but I don’t really do any other sports. I’ve never enjoyed any others.
32. There’s nothing I enjoy more than sitting in a beer garden on a hot day.
33. My biggest goal is to run a music event centered on mental health awareness (not giving you any more info on that yet!)
34. I change my hair colour a lot and I don’t really have a style. Today I have long brown hair, tshirt and ripped jeans on, tomorrow I’ll have short blonde hair with a pink skirt and a flowy top.
35. I failed my AS levels and dropped out half way through my second year of sixth form. Therefore, I’m two years behind at uni.
36. The feeling of an event coming together and knowing that I’ve done that is the greatest feeling to me.
37. Events Management was a complete mistake. I wanted to study Journalism and went to an Open Day in London with a friend that wanted to do Events. We both went to both of the talks  and I changed my mind.
38. Leeds was also a mistake. I was completely set on studying in Liverpool, but I met a girl at the Liverpool open day who said she really liked Leeds.
39. I once pitched an event idea to the Head of Ceremonies London 2012 Olympics, Martin Green.
40. When I was fifteen I had a panic attack at least once a day for a couple of months.
41. When I’m interested in something I’m completely obsessed or I lose interest. I go to the gym every single day for three months, and then don’t go for six months. Finding a balance is not my forte.
42. I really want to go to Bali, California, Nashville, New York and Africa.
43. I wish I wasn’t scared of so much. It makes life so much harder.
44. I love the idea of Freecycling. I’m addicted to DIY and making not-so-pretty things look pretty.
45. I hate velvet. I’m a 90s kid and it just brings back awful memories.
46. Anything that hangs from the ceiling is amazing to me. You need to dress an entire room.
47. I’m not very good at designing any art or event that I wouldn’t want myself. If I wouldn’t be happy looking at it every day in my living room or on the most important day of my life – I’m not going to make you pay for it.
48. I have a labradoodle called Charlie who is my number one guy.
49. I have a crush on Mark Rufallo. Which my boyfriend says is weird.
50. My friends that know me from school all call me Loz. No one else does.